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Confidence Freaks Me Out

by Tar Of

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1.
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Garbage In 00:52
In the season’s midst, fiction breathes a bit hot (too hot). Incomplete, as if in the seed something stopped. It stalks. If the sea, unfit, kissed the cheek of its spouse in spots, spit the seeds and pits in the weeds where it knots.
3.
Took a detour to Saskatoon in a little propeller plane. Dropped an ‘I do’ and ‘I do too’. We’re a bit too much for me. A ring, a ring, a bumpy stone. Thank you. Sorry. Honolulu honeymoon in the middle of January. Got a new ‘do and shiny boots. It’s a bit too much for me. A ring, a ring, a bumpy stone. Thank you. Sorry.
4.
5.
Gestures with their chin down toward the Atlantic Ocean, cup of tea in hand, and hangs up the phone. Dining at their table, thinking both of them will die soon, incredulously they’re turning to them. Trying to imitate Southern American accent. Chew tobacco like them and spit like them. Lowers the divider, pantomime without a fiber. Nodding at the clothing hugging their waist. Perspiring and trembling, tersely to them interrupting, leaning on the railing, cherishing them. Working the hellish glow, silhouetted against purple. Vision in red and black. Postcard image. Amused by their comment, focusing more on the sketching, denying their blushing, rendering them.
6.
Where’s my dude? There’s my dude. What’s up my dude? How do you do? Saved a few spots for you and you and you and you and you. Take your shoes off before you come in the room. You’re in my room. Dana, shoo! Not for you. I put your food up top for you.
7.
They do landscapes.
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9.
Sticky Heat 00:43
Got a wet bug in my eye.
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11.
Uh Oh 03:10
Uh oh.
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13.
So Easy 00:32
Window like a searchlight, shadow like a first time I hate you for being so So easy.
14.
Me Out 00:14
15.
Berry 03:56
Cucumber delight A twist of lime And she with chai Cherry drink not shy I almost mind A blanket lie Landed in August Stayed ‘til July Do simple processes two moves at a time (I’m your toot berry You’re my toot Feri Man, tou) Do simple processes to youth summertime (You’re my toot berry Man, tou) Under my under my Underneath my maman’s toot tree Under my under my Underneath my maman’s toot tree Soak them in the light Some furtive bites A pair of die Rinsing a reply I shake them dry A tree high high Fluency almost Bade them goodbye Do simple jaw routines two clicks at a time (I’m your toot berry You’re my toot Feri Man, tou) Do simple processes two moves at a time (I’m your toot berry You’re my toot Feri Man, tou) Under my under my Underneath my maman’s toot tree
16.
Cardinal 00:48
Ta Ka Ta Ki Ta Ta Ki Ta Ta Din Gi Na Tom Ta Ka Di Me Ta Ka Ta Ki Ta Ta Ka Ta Ki Ta Ta Ka Di Me Ta Ki Ta Ta Ka Ta Ki Ta Tin Tin Na Dhin Na Dhin Na Ta Ki Ta Ta Ka Ta Ki Ta Ta Ka Di Mi Ta Ki Ta Ta Ka Di Mi Ta Ki Ta
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Fictional season.
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Squiggled scribble Undefined Squiggled scribble Undefined line Flush dead instinct Can it be a fault Mummy wrist flick Calling out the scrawl Gassed up entries Scaffolding, a scold Curled up face it Confidence freaks me out
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Posers 00:45
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Validation 03:10
Mama Joon I conclude I put the mood up on the mood Without preface probably true Preservation we can assume I am only words on a page Rubber stamp me right on the nose Validation Validation Merci merci merci Generated pat on the back Presentation after the fact I am interior gestures Realization: actually though, am I? Mama Joon thanking you Mama Joon Validation Validation Merci merci merci Mama Joon I conclude I put the mood up on the mood
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Sorry Baba 00:22
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Ey Vaay 03:28
Ey vaay.
24.
Giddyup 00:56
I don’t wanna run and hide. I wanna play hide and seek or at least find another game. I don’t wanna stay inside. I don’t mean to rush and climb. I’m outta days. I just need to push this tide outta the way. I don’t wanna waste this time.

about

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Confidence Freaks Me Out is an exercise in patiently constructed joyous absurdity. Each compositional choice was guided by a desire to confound and amuse: if an arrangement felt too serious, it was reworked with a silly premise, “bad” decision, or dumb inside joke tucked into a supporting wall. Any or all parts became interchangeable, permuting and transmuting ad nauseam.

As the pieces unspooled, they became completely untethered from their original meanings, generating new and increasingly wacky artifacts: melodic mondegreens spinning off into miniatures, placeholder syllables begetting dissonant symphonic breakdowns, toy pianos quantizing into shaky Hindustani talas.

Scaffolded by process-first mutant serialism and maximalist cheek, the album crams every inch of the canvas with stimulation, tempered by a lighthearted stupidity. It’s artrock with a bit of orchestral goof, a timid ensemble with party hats on, two composeurs playing musical parlour games.

credits

released October 27, 2023

Amused By Their Comment
Saxophone, Clarinet, Zurna: Geoff Saba
Trumpet: Mark Vigeant

Lowercase Father
Clarinet, Saxophone: Geoff Saba

Uh Oh
Flute: Yen Chiang

Fictional Season
Piano: Sarah Nguyen

Validation
Clarinet, Saxophone: Geoff Saba

Sorry Baba
Clarinet, Saxophone: Geoff Saba

Ey Vaay
Saxophone: Geoff Saba

written, recorded, and mixed by Tar Of
mastered by Angel Marcloid at Angel Hair Audio - angelhairaudio.com

artwork by Matthew Sairio
cone calculations by Kevin J Dolan
photography by Michael Marfione
layout by AB / RR

Tar Of is Ariyan Basu and Ramin Rahni

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